An Experiment: Update #4

23 July 2007
So I have not blogged in awhile and I have been really busy, lonely, and just whatever. I am, however, doing fine. Please do not worry about me. It is just the way feel.

I think what contributed to my loneliness was no update in getting my friend. The bishop was out of town two Sundays ago. I was supposed to get my friend, or at least I think I was. I still have not gotten him. I feel like the bishop has just left me in the dust. It seems as if he does not care about me anymore. He has not called me into his office and he has not called me on my phone in a long time. I feel like I have been beaten up by getting my hopes up and left in the ditch to die. It is not really fun.

What also contributed to these feelings was that my EQ President did not call me all last week. He finally called me on Saturday, but I was really angry at him so I did not answer the phone. He left a message that I listened to and it was as if he felt like he had been there the whole time. I texted him and told him that I was busy and could not talk or do anything with him tonight (I was not lying). He then wanted to talk to me yesterday. I was not going to be at church so he set up an appointment with me to talk. My home teachers also scheduled to come over. The home teachers were supposed to be there thirty minutes before my EQ President arrived. They did not show up until after my EQ President, so we did not get to talk. He told me to come to Ward Prayer and then we could talk afterwards. This, however, did not happen. I texted him again letting him know that I was free to talk and that I would be waiting for him. He did not text me back until midnight. He perpetuated the feelings that I have been feeling because of the lack of support from my bishop.

In short, I am extremely lonely. I have great friends, but for some reason I continue to feel lonely. I do not know why. I have tried to get rid of this loneliness, but it comes and goes with the situations I am in. I also feel like I have been forgotten by a lot of my friends. I guess this is the update of the experiment and my life.

3 comments:

Kengo Biddles said...

I'm sorry you feel so lonely! I know the feeling. Please-o-please tell me what, if anything I can do to help?

Max Power said...

:(

I'm sorry that you feel lonely. I know that feeling all too well. I wish that I would have had some time to visit you while I was in Utah for my grandpa's funeral, but alas I did not. Give me a call if you want to chat.

Charlie said...

Well, this probably won't help much (but maybe, just maybe, it might?) but I will most likely be in SLC AUGUST 18th, not July, like was originally thought. Wanna go shopping at Gateway? I know it'd make Calvin extremely jealous. :)