Lately I feel like I am an alien. Whenever I go out, I feel like I am out of place and that I do not belong. I used to go out with these friends all the time and have a good time, but I do not feel like I belong again. Is it because I am moving on? Is it because I am alienating myself from most everyone else and it is just natural for me to be alienated with them too? Is it because I am too young to be hanging out with them? Is it because they do not like me? What is the cause?
I am lost on this, but I do feel like I am from another planet and that I do not fit in anymore. Any advice or hints of the cause?
In other news, I am very sick and depressed. That is all.
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5 comments:
If it would help you at all, you could come over to our place and I could serve you blue milk while babbling like a jawa ...
Dear Opened Path: I very often feel this way. I think in my experience I struggle with the attraction I feel to certain people, and I am apprehensive about inadvertantly revealing my homosexuality. Or maybe I'm just so used to feeling different that I think the moment I draw near to people the differences between me and the "normal" ones will leap forward. Hang in there, buddy.
I am very sick and depressed
I'm so sorry. Too bad we don't live closer together - we could get a gallon of chocolate ice cream and make ourselves sick eating it to drown our sorrows. Or, on the other hand, maybe it's a good thing we don't live closer to each other.
In any case, I hope things get better soon. I certainly can relate to how you are feeling right now. Hopefully church helped lift your spirits - I'm feeling a bit better today after having my spiritual batteries recharged at church this morning.
or, you could just call me and come hang out...that works too...ps, we got couches!
You sure do have a lot of different names!
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