Who Are You?

23 January 2008
Before I start this post, I want to start off by saying thank you to all of you who sent your support to me and my family, for the prayers, and for the love you have for me. My brother turned out to be alright. He had extensive cuts and bruises on his body and he separated his shoulder. There were no broken bones and there was no super serious damage. They released him from the hospital a day later because they wanted to keep him overnight for observation. Everything has turned out fine. I thank God for blessing our family and keeping my brother alive. I do not know what I would do without him.

I watched Drop Dead Gorgeous this weekend with some of my swimmers. When it got to the part with the anorexic pageant winner saying, "Who are you?" to Becky, I really started to think about who I am. I do not know why this movie struck me so hard at this moment, but it did. I finished watching the movie and then I went to a friend's birthday party. After the party, I thought about who I am. I started to pray to God to help me discover the answer to my question of who I am. I got much more of an answer than who I am. I learned about myself, my gifts, and how they define me.

I was told numerous times that I am a child of God and that He loves me no matter what (I know this but it still feels good to have it reinforced every once in a while). Then I felt that God was pleased with me because I have stopped let my "gayness" and SSA define my whole persona. I have been discovering over the past 6 months that it really does not matter who you are attracted to. What matters is what you do with that part of yourself. God also told me that because of have stopped letting SSA define me, I have noticed a decline in my problems with it. It does not bother me and cause qualms with life, unless I act upon it. I can live life happily. I also found out that my divine potential is limited only to myself. If I do what is right, then my potential is limitless, but if I do not do what is right, I limit my potential.

After receiving these great pieces of information, I received a few tidbits of other information that I really do not want to share with all of you. I will give some general information though. I now firmly believe that having SSA can be a gift or a curse. It just depends on how you look at it and how you place it in your life. I also found out that certain gifts that I have help define me as a person, but not my whole persona. Having SSA is one of those gifts that define a part of me. There are many parts to me and they have all been given to me by God. He knows what will be best for me, the gifts that I need to grow to my greatest potential, and how far I can be pushed for growth.

He gave me SSA for a reason and I know that I have had unique experiences here that I would not have had if I did not have it. Also, I do not think my testimony would be where it is today if I did not have SSA.


One of So Many said...

We are only as great as our hearts will allow.

draco said...

I'm so glad that your brother is okay!

And I'm glad to hear that you're feeling so positive about life :)

"I now firmly believe that having SSA can be a gift or a curse. It just depends on how you look at it and how you place it in your life."

I agree wholeheartedly!