The New Life of Sean

21 April 2008
My life has taken a drastic change. I have received news that I am not going on a mission--I was not approved to go. Where do I go from here? I am not sure. I am for sure going to stay with the Church and live the best life that I can. The problem is that I do not have a plan for the future. My plan was to go on a mission, then finish school, and worry about my life after my mission. Now, I have to figure out my future right now.

My plans are to stay at BYU and go to medical school. Other than that, I am not sure. I guess that I need to start thinking about marriage, which medical school to go to, where to internship, where to do research, and when to take the MCAT. These are all things that are going to be within the next couple of years, instead of five years. Wow! My life is changing quickly.

I see and feel the need to move on and my bishop wants me to move on. What does moving on entailing for me? Is it to stop this blog? Is it to stop associating myself with all MoHos? Is it to keep my MoHo friends and stop making new ones? Is it to stop reading blogs and commenting? Is it to find the woman from my dreams? What do I need to do?

I am not sure yet, but my answers will soon come or come when the Lord sees fit to tell me. I trust that the Lord will guide and direct me. I also trust the Lord has a certain path for me and that is why I am not going on a mission.

My path is still open to me and this might be the end of this part of my path.


Nick said...

Life always seems to take turns when we least expect it. I hope you find peace in your path.

Mr. B said...

I know exactly how you feel. It's always fun when you end up with an extra year or two of life you weren't planning on eh?

Max Power said...

Hey bud, sorry to hear about the mish. I know that you were really looking forward to going.

But look at the bright side, you don't have to stop hanging with me for those two years. :D

Kengo Biddles said...

You get to go through the exact experience I did when I got home from my mission. "Now what?" But now, instead of two years from now, when everything's changed except you in some ways.

Knowing you, sir, you'll do just fine.

Leslie Elaine said...

There are so many great quotes that come to mind.

"There are two ways to live your is as though nothing is a miracle, the other is as though everything is a miracle."-Albert Einstein

I think that as you stay close to the Lord and he directs you, how can you not see everything as a miracle? Don't lose faith, hope or love.

elbow said...

This is a hard thing to come to the end of this journey for you but at the same time it's exciting to know that you are starting a new path and a new journey that will lead to great things. The unknown can be a blessing and I'm sure you'll find the path you need to be on.

Thanks for your blog. I really appreciate your journey.

A CROW'S VIEW said...

Don't give up. The time is apparently not right, right now. One of my best friends, was told he couldn't go. He thought it was rather perminant. But he stayed faithful and two years later has been cleared to go. Don't give up hope. If this is truly what you want to do and its what the Lord wants you to do, then a way will be made for it to happen.

Until then keep doing what you are doing. You don't know how much you have touched my life and inspired me. The church needs guys like you. You accept people for who they are while holding them to believe and act the way they say they do. You are able to do both in such a loving and Christlike way.

You accepted me right off the bat. You made me a friend. A lot of the stupid 19 year-olds who go out don't know how to do that. If they only had that ability they would be 100 percent more effective.

I know God has a purpose and a role for you. You are loved and needed and you have a mission. Don't give up. I am grateful for our friendship.

Cadence said...

good luck man, if I were to do it over again knowing what I know I'd take off for two years on my own exploring the world... but thats me...