What Doth Thou Desire?

There have been a lot of things on my mind lately. I have been extremely happy. In fact, this is one of the happiest times of my life! I am truly enjoying life and it feels like nothing can get me down (I will write about why I feel so happy at a later date, but I promise that it is coming soon).

This past Sunday, as a lot of you already know, it was fast Sunday. Usually I get some good insights out of fast and testimony meeting, but this time I received an unusually profound witness of things that have been on my mind. There was a girl who read something in second Nephi (I do not remember the chapter or verse). She then went on to say that she started to ask herself what she truly desired. She received the answers she was looking for and then tried to do them. She has felt that things are going better for her and that God is blessing her because she is working on obtaining her true desires.

Following her example, I did the same. All throughout church, I started to ask myself the thoughts that were on my mind. “What doth thou desire Gimple? Doth thou desire a gay lifetime partnership with a man?” The Spirit immediately left me. I took this to be a no. After asking a lot more questions to myself and getting yes and no answers by the Spirit coming and going, I asked myself, “What doth thou truly desire Gimple? Doth thou truly desire eternal life?” I was so overwhelmed by the Spirit that I almost started to cry. I truly know that I desire eternal life and that I need to do certain things to obtain it. I know what these things are and so does God. The hardest part is trying not to do the things that I know I should not be doing.