Plans...

I've set a course out for future plans if medical school doesn't work out this year. These are my plans after I graduate in April:

1. Move to California
2. Get a biomedical/biochemistry related job (I'm already working on this one and my cousin Val Pal is setting me up with her friend who works for a biomedical company)
   
3. Gain residency in California
   
4. Expand my resume
5. Volunteer at a charity medical clinic
6. Continue coaching swimming, if possible
   
7. Take the GRE
8. Take the GRE: Biochemistry Supplement Test
9. Reapply to medical school
10. If option 9 doesn't work again, apply to graduate school and move on

I hope all of this works out, if I'm not admitted into medical school this year. Thanks for all of your support. I do appreciate it.

Top 5 Biggest Fears

1. Failure
2. Not being able to help others, especially those I care about
   
3. Hurting others, especially those I care about
   
4. Not getting into medical school
5. Losing my passion and dreams in life

Why do all of these seem to becoming true all at once? Sigh...

Future, What Future?

I am depressed about my future. I feel like I don't have one. I feel like my dreams are falling through the cracks or shattering into a million and one pieces. I just don't know what to do anymore. The interview season is almost over (2 or 3 months depending on the school) and I have yet to hear back from one medical school. It is getting beyond frustrating. I've tried really hard not to think about it, but it's all that I can think about lately. I really want to go to medical school and I feel like it is going to be the best place for me, but I guess the schools are thinking otherwise. Sigh...

I've started looking into taking the GRE and applying to graduate schools in biochemistry because I don't think I'm going to get into medical school. This is something that I don't want to do because I don't want to be in a lab my whole life. I want to be interacting with people and healing them. It looks like this isn't going to happen though. Sigh... Life is so depressing right now.

What did I do wrong? What should I have done differently? Should I call or email the medical schools to see about my application status?

I feel like a failure.

Amusing

I found this amusing.

http://www.clusterflock.org/2009/11/i-thirst.html

Bus...

This is what I have been feeling like for the past couple of days...


I've been thrown under the bus of life, yet again... Sigh...