23 April 2009
As Madonna says, "Time goes by so slowly" and at the same time, "I've only got four minutes to save the world..."

This, however, doesn't seen to be happening to me right now. It's going way too fast and those four minutes are coming to an end faster than I want! There's so little time, yet so much to do! Holy crapola! Where has all the time gone? I finished the semester yesterday and I'm officially a senior, even though I have technically been a senior since my sophomore year. I only have one year of college left! I'm kind of freaking out about that. I'm going to be applying to medical schools this up and coming month. I'm going to be working very hard on publishing a paper this summer. There is so much to do! I also have my MCAT in about a week and half (wish me luck)! It's crazy, psycho, and really exciting all at once. All that I can think is WOW! My life has come and gone and continues to come and go.

I look back to my freshman year here at BYU and in three short, yet long years, I have become a man. I feel like I am no longer the little boy who started college. The one who was nervous, scared, yet confident at the same time. That confidence has grown more and more as I have come out and become comfortable with who I am. No longer am I scared to be proud of who I am. No longer am I scared to show everybody my smarts, my skills, my passions, and basically everything about me. (On a side note, I ran into a bunch of old friends from high school and they didn't recognize me. They told me that I have changed so much and I'm very happy about that.) I am who I am and if people don't like me, that's their own fault. For instance, I wore my Madonna shirt to a final the other day and everybody just looked at me like I was insane and some started laughing. I told them not to judge and that Madonna is amazing. They all got serious and quiet. It was amazing! I also wore my "I heart, heart, heart, polygamy" shirt yesterday. I had some people give me crazy looks, but others thought it was amazing! I even had one of my favorite professors tell me that she wished she had the confidence to wear that shirt on campus. It was pretty much amazing! I have finally found who I am and I am extremely happy!

I love being me! I love my life! I love who I am! I can't wait to get into the real world and show the world who I am and what I can do! I can't wait to accomplish my goals and purpose in life! There is so much good I can do in my life and it's about that time to start happening! I can't wait to save lives! I can't wait to change the world! It's my time and I'm ready for the challenge!

As I look at my time here at BYU, I know I wouldn't have become the person that I am today without actually being here at BYU. I'm pretty sure that my life would be completely different. I know a lot of people regret coming to BYU because they came out to themselves here and couldn't be their true selves, but I feel the opposite. I feel like my experience here has let me become my true self. It has helped me gain a sense of who I am and what I want to do with my life. Also, thanks to Michael, I was able to stand up for something that I truly believed in. BYU has been great for me, even though I have hated it at times. It has also reinforced some of the goals that I set for myself at the beginning of college.

My path is still opened to me and I am taking it with confidence and one step at a time.

PS I love this website! It makes my life a little bit better everyday. (Thanks Camille for introducing me to it!)


Scott said...

As Madonna says, "Time goes by so slowly"...

That was the Righteous Brothers, wasn't it? :) (Okay, technically Unchained Melody was written and first recorded 10 years before the Righteous Brothers' version, but theirs is arguably the most famous, thanks to its use in the movie Ghost in 1990)


I'm so glad that you're so happy! Best of luck on the MCAT and the subsequent med-school applications.

Drew said...

heck yes, sean! that is totally the best site. i highly recommend checking out the "top FML."

anyway, it was good to see you today in the library. good luck on your mcat.

and you looked way good in the shirt you were wearing.

Sean said...

Sorry, but it will always be Madonna to me. I haven't even heard of the righteous brothers before. Also, thanks for the wishes! :)

I have and I love the one about the guy falling asleep and his teacher grabbing his penis. It was amazing! I couldn't stop laughing for about 5 minutes. Great, great fun! :) Also thanks for the wishes and compliment! :)

Bravone said...

Sean, I am so glad you are comfortable with yourself and your confidence is growing. Keep it up!

Beck said...

This is such a great post! I can just feel the energy and enthusiasm and confidence and am so excited for you and your amazing future!

Keep it up and congrats on finishing another year of school with such a great outlook on life. Way to go!

I only wish that I had your confidence and assurance of who I am at your age... Big atta-boys!

camille said...

hahah... oh my. that is so funny that i made that earlier comment when i was logged in on drew's computer. yikes. good thing you figured out it was me.

Drew said...

Ha. I read that comment that "I" posted and I didn't even realize that it was my profile either. haha But I'm glad to hear that the MCAT went well Sean. Good job!