Attraction

I do not get why people put so much emphasis on physical attraction. I think emotional, spiritual, and intellectual attraction is much more important than physical! In fact, I have been noticing (as well as others) that I do not walk in a room and see who is the hottest guy there. People ask me who I think is hot in the room and I start looking around. They are then surprised to see me looking around. They wonder why I have not noticed before. In my opinion, People just need to look past the physical and see what great relationships they can have, even if they are not physically attracted to the other person.

There will be up and coming post on this topic. I just wanted to get this off my chest.

What Doth Thou Desire?

There have been a lot of things on my mind lately. I have been extremely happy. In fact, this is one of the happiest times of my life! I am truly enjoying life and it feels like nothing can get me down (I will write about why I feel so happy at a later date, but I promise that it is coming soon).

This past Sunday, as a lot of you already know, it was fast Sunday. Usually I get some good insights out of fast and testimony meeting, but this time I received an unusually profound witness of things that have been on my mind. There was a girl who read something in second Nephi (I do not remember the chapter or verse). She then went on to say that she started to ask herself what she truly desired. She received the answers she was looking for and then tried to do them. She has felt that things are going better for her and that God is blessing her because she is working on obtaining her true desires.

Following her example, I did the same. All throughout church, I started to ask myself the thoughts that were on my mind. “What doth thou desire Gimple? Doth thou desire a gay lifetime partnership with a man?” The Spirit immediately left me. I took this to be a no. After asking a lot more questions to myself and getting yes and no answers by the Spirit coming and going, I asked myself, “What doth thou truly desire Gimple? Doth thou truly desire eternal life?” I was so overwhelmed by the Spirit that I almost started to cry. I truly know that I desire eternal life and that I need to do certain things to obtain it. I know what these things are and so does God. The hardest part is trying not to do the things that I know I should not be doing.

Dancing the Night Away

I cannot sleep at this moment in time, so I decided to write a post about my amazing time 80's Dancing. I can honestly say that it was one of the best times I have ever gone clubbing! It was just simply great. I had so much fun. I took a girl that I am dating, Dancing Queen, and her friend with us. There we also some friends from the blogger world there along with my good friend Cranberry.

Half of us got there really early and were the only ones on the dance floor. It was so much fun and cooler to be the only ones on the dance floor. Dancing Queen impressed me with some of her moves and then I impressed her with some of my moves. He had so much fun dancing together. The night got all hot and sweaty, but we did not care because 80's dancing was so worth it! We stayed until about 1 and then headed to 7/11 for slurpies! They were delicious. I then took my girls home and went to bed.

Today I promised Dancing Queen that I would take her out to dinner before she went to work. So I took her out and we had great conversation for a couple of hours. We then had to speed off really quickly so she could get to work on time. I think that I am really starting to fall for her and I think that she is starting to fall for me! :) She is a great woman that loves to laugh and have a good time. I am hoping to date her more often this year and I hope that we can always be friends. I love my Dancing Queen!

80's Dancing

There are a bunch of people (Mohos and family friendly friends) going 80's dancing next Thursday. We are going to dress up, have a good time, and party! Anybody who wants to come with us, email me, text me, call me, comment on this post, or whatever it takes to get a hold of me and I will give you more information. Hope all is well with everyone!

PS I have decided to stay... :)

Should I Stay OR Should I Go?

As many of you have noticed, I have not been blogging for a very long time and I have been wondering if it is worth it. I have moved on and I really feel like I do not need blogging to help me out in my life anymore. I am extremely happy and it has not gone away! I also do not know if my blog actually help anyone with problems (like I wanted) and if they allow others to gain insights from my experiences. I just do not know if I should keep on writing, but if people want me to stay and continue to write, I will.

I am asking you all your opinion. Should I stay or should I go? I would like emails, comments, or any other method to portray your thoughts and feelings to me. Have I helped you? Have I given you insights? Do you want to continue to hear from me?

Please let me know or else I will probably just stop writing without any of your input.

Still on Vacation...

I thought that I would quickly write an update of my life. First, I would like to apologize for not reading or commenting on others blogs. I have a feeling that I have a lot of catching up to do!

I just want to say that I have never been happier! I feel like I am getting back to my old self (one that most of you do not know). I have not felt this way in a long time (probably not since I have been in elementary school). This is a true happiness, not a fake one that lasts a day or one that I pretend to have. I am truly happy. My life has changed a lot. I rarely get lonely anymore. I know that I have people who love and care about me. I have the Spirit with me most of the time. Everything just seems to be going my way.

To top it all off, I think that I have fully accepted me being gay and not caring what people think anymore. I thought that I fully accepted it before, but now that I look back, I realize that I had not. Now, I will be myself with anyone, including my swimmers. I will not say that guy is cute or I want some action with him (I continue to hide that), but I just be myself. I have become more open with everyone than I have ever been before. It is great and life is great!

I hope that everyone is doing well and I do not really know when I am going to start blogging again. I am thinking that it will probably be after finals next week or maybe not until September. I will just have to see how I am feeling.

The picture above is of good times that I have had with my swim team. I remember that I was really happy at that time, but it did not last. I think that this happiness that I am feeling is going to last for a long time. I am as happy as "the head" is right now...

A Ranting Vacation

I would like to thank all of you who read my blog and especially those who comment. I love all of you, despite my lack of knowing some of you. I just wanted to tell everyone that I am going to be taking a break. I am perfectly fine, but I just do not have the time and effort to write posts.

Here is a little rant for y'all. I have only really been writing depressing posts because those are the ones I need to get out and off my chest. My life is mostly great and I love it a lot. There are just some hard times. One thing that really bothers me is when people comment or email that I should think about going on pills. Personally, I do not think pills will help me. Sure I have ups and downs, but it is a natural part of life. I am not depressed all the time! My counselor has told me that I am perfectly fine psychologically and that I am just a normal person. So please quit telling me that I need pills!

That is all. I am done for awhile and I hope that when I get back you will read my blog again.