Another Joy of Life

Here is another update in the life of Sean. It is not as fun as the last one. Actually, it is not fun at all. As many of you know, when there comes something challenging in my life, I call it a joy of life. Well, this is one of the biggest joys of life I have ever had. This new joy of life came from my doctor today. I went in and had all of my test results told to me. Everything was pretty much as I expected it. I am sick and all of my symptoms matched the results from the test. There was a little bit more this time though. The doctor saved this little bit of news for the end. It was definitely the most serious and traumatizing. In my CT Scan, the radiologist found cysts in my liver. He told it to me straight and I will tell you the same. I might have liver cancer. The results are not yet conclusive. I have to go in for more tests next week so I can get a yea or a nay. I do not want all of you to freak out and worry for me. There is still a chance that I might not have it. I just wanted to let all of you know.

Sometimes I wonder if I am cursed to have tons of problems in my life.

I'm Cursed!

I have decided that I am definitely cursed. I try to follow my heart and do what I think is right, but this always turns into hurting my friends one way or another. I cannot please my friends and I cannot please myself without hurting someone. What am I supposed to do? I have also been cursed with the trouble of making friends. Coupled with the fact that I chase most of my friends away equates into the lack of friends. If you consider yourself my friend right now, I hope that I do not do anything that might potentially harm our friendship. To all of those whose friendships I some how managed to ruin, I am truly sorry. I wish that I would have done some things differently. I am cursed!